My lack of intersexual talks
It’s probably not the right term to use, and by “intersexual” I don’t mean the UrbanDictionary definition of ”The now ‘appropriate’ word for a hermaphrodite (a person born with both a penis and a vagina)”. ‘Cuz really I have no needs to talk to such person, and this isn’t a coming out post either. Yikes.
What I really meant was, that I happen to not talk much to the other sex, i.e. boys. It really sums up to speaking 4 words to my dad [who I live with] and maybe 2 words to my brother, who comes home for 2 hours on fridays. Outside the family is where it gets really bad though. I never had male-friends and when my girl-friends’ friends were around, I never felt comfortable talking to them. I’m a shy person by nature and it’s bad enough for me to talk to girls. Talking to boys is a whole different anxiety-filled task. Everything feels like a flirt to me, and I don’t know what to do with it. And even though people tell me sometimes I talk like a guy, and I watch plenty of guy-talks on tv and film, I still don’t know how I should talk to them. When I talk to girls I’m sometimes [a lot of times] silly and making no sense, or saying wrong things, just trying to fill the silence somehow. With boys, I just feel pathetic doing that.
I guess I really feel sympathy for this guy.
Rajesh Koothrappali
Raj from The Big Bang Theory has the same problem. He can’t speak to girls. Unless he’s drunk. I haven’t tried that yet, and it doesn’t sound like a great idea to trust alcohol in becoming a normal person who can SPEAK. Poor Raj is a brilliant person who becomes a tiny tiny person when it comes to conversing with the opposite sex. Like him, the most simple comment or question I have to make to a male figure is usually an awkward situation to me. A while ago I nearly lost my somewhat-expensive sunglasses because I pondered whether or not I should ask the GUY at the gym’s reception’s desk if anyone found them. But I did [even though I couldn't hear my own voice] and he handed them to me.
Oh what can I do. Being in a guy-free environment for so long makes a girl more and more insecure. I had better times when at least online I’d speak to guys, but even that doesn’t really exist anymore. I should get this solved somehow. They ARE half of the world population. And they do tend to sit next to me in class and I should be able to say more than banal sentences [more like answers 'cuz really I never develop convo's] to them. And I know people usually say guys want a girl to be pretty and shut up, but is a half mute okay also?
Oh big bang writers, do something to help me and Raj! We’re good people overall!
